Wednesday, June, 30, 2004

Unfortunately, I didn’t get in touch with Marc over my lunch break. I had to really try and hustle at work because there was a power outage and all the computers went down. My computer did not immediately go back on line when everyone else’s one did. I had to wait until the computer department started there shift before I could use my computer again. So for about an hour or an hour and a half I opened mail.

Also yesterday Li Jie did not show up for work. I believe I heard Arvada mention yesterday that Li Jie would not be in today. Neither Brian nor Mellissa told me to do her work. I only do her work if asked because I don’t want to get yelled at for doing something I wasn’t told to do. Maybe, they didn’t ask this time because I screwed something up. You never know. They never really say anything around here. I always feel like I’m on the verge of being laid off and just one more incident might push them over the edge. No one’s yelled at me, but who knows maybe they’re just itching for a reason. I guess I should accept the fact that no news is good news....

Basically, I don’t like to feel too secure. I don’t want to be caught off guard. You know think everything is a OK and then discover at the last minute that it’s not. I’m always looking around for the next rain cloud. So I assume that everyone either hates my guts or doesn’t know of my existence on earth. As a result of this I’m very apprehensive and cautious about almost everything I do. Then I remember that no one could care less what I do. So, thus, I happily chug along with my writing and art.

Oh, my goodness! I just noticed while listening to NPR’s Morning Edition that it has a segment on sponsored by Halliburton! Yikes! I have noticed that recently the station has taken on a slightly conservative slant. Right now, they’re doing a segment that sounds as though it is against religious diversity. Yikes!