Today, I went back to work today feeling depressed out of my mind. I felt like breaking down and crying several times today.

For the first time ever there will be nothing decent to listen to on the radio. It will just be me and my iPod. Howard Stern is off the air and on its place on the radio dial are The Junkies! God, how I loathe them! Every time I see their billboards up around town I want to shake my tiny girl fist at them.

Alas, I decided to go to the movies to cheer myself up. The movie I saw was Brokeback Mountain, also known as the gay cowboy movie.

The main reason I wanted to see it is because I have never seen a gay cowboy movie before. Besides it has two hot guys in it who are hot for each other.

Overall, I found it a brilliant and moving love story. Albeit, it took a long while for Jack Twist and Ennis to declare their love and do the deed. It was fun to watch the reaction of a few audience members when it finally happened. A couple of men immediately stormed out of the theater. I am not sure if they left because they were offended by the guy on guy action or if they had somewhere else to go....really, really, fast.

In all there was a total of two big gay love scenes. The first one was very rough and violent in tone. I have to admit that the first one frightened me a bit. So in a since I can not entirely fault the men who ran out of the theatre. In the first love scene it seemed as though they were trying to draw blood by hurting each other. The second love scene was much gentler in tone.

The two leads in the movie were believable. I loved the sexual recklessness of Jack Twist played by Jake Gyllenhaal and the quiet stoicism of Ennis played by Heath Ledger.

Overall, I think Heath Ledger deserves an Oscar nod for playing the cowboy who found it hard to come to grips with his sexuality. It should be noted that both of the cowboys eventually married female clones of themselves. Jack Twist marries an equally sexually overt woman while Ennis marries a quiet woman. Despite, there straight marriages they continue on with there relationship on the downlow.

The one thing I hated about this movie was that someone died at the end. How come Hollywood can not seem to make a romantic movie without someone dying at the end?

As far as the audience goes I did see a couple of men who seemed to have been dragged unwillingly to the movie by their girlfriends. These I suspect were some of the ones who fled whenever Jack and Ennis got that special look in their eye. Also I was surprised by the number of women who were in the audience. A few of those women came in groups. I was surprised by the number of women I saw because I thought that the audience would be comprised primarily of gay men. All in all the majority of people in the theatre were either females or gay men and couple of uncomfortable heterosexual men. Also it should be noted that the theatre was absolutely packed. This of course was a surprise because it was a weekday.